life, love,art. heart failure and assorted ramblings

life, love,art. heart failure and assorted ramblings

Don't Talk Like That...

I write to find out what my heart thinks....
I write to expose and work through the ugly parts of this disease, open heart surgery that was less than successful and more recently an S-ICD (internal cardiac defibrillator) implanted in my chest that will hopefully restore my heart beat in case of sudden cardiac death. I am here to celebrate my life, to uncover my fears, to hold on to love, to learn how to live a full life with heart failure, to honor my creativity, and to explore all of my emotions out loud ...before anyone can say
"Don't talk like that!"


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Sunday, October 4, 2015

My only choice...



There are so many things in my life I will not have control of.  My choice, my only choice will be how I react to what is happening to me and around me.   I have the power to choose how I allow these things (events, people, and health) to affect my life and my happiness.  I have decided to be happy!  So many people think that is the easy choice that it comes easily without struggle or pain. They are wrong!  It is a decision that takes commitment and work, just like any other life choice, but I know in my heart it is worth it.  I am hoping the rewards when realized will be more than I or anyone else could possibly imagine, but even if they are not I can honestly say I am happy!

            "The Best day of My Life"  American Authors

6 comments:

  1. OMG....I just friended u ;p cuz of ur love for life & art! I am resting, after getting ready for church, saw u had a blog so I clicked to visit it and OMG u have heart failure too. I was jus diagnosed June of this year and this week sometime will be getting biventurical pacemaker with difibulator at the 46 yrs young!
    Our God works in mysterious ways!

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  2. OMG....I just friended u ;p cuz of ur love for life & art! I am resting, after getting ready for church, saw u had a blog so I clicked to visit it and OMG u have heart failure too. I was jus diagnosed June of this year and this week sometime will be getting biventurical pacemaker with difibulator at the 46 yrs young!
    Our God works in mysterious ways!

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  3. The mysteries of this life never ever cease to amaze me. Thank you for following! Good luck with the defibrillator, I have found that for every negative thing heart failure has presented in my life, it has brought at least the same if not more magnificent insights and blessings. I hope it will be the same for you!

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  4. The mysteries of this life never ever cease to amaze me. Thank you for following! Good luck with the defibrillator, I have found that for every negative thing heart failure has presented in my life, it has brought at least the same if not more magnificent insights and blessings. I hope it will be the same for you!

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  5. Yes, I have found the same ....God has slowed me down so that I can realize that I have art hidden inside. I have been so darn busy that my creative heart hasn't had a chance to open! It's been a bittersweet journey that I am beginning to embrace. My Facebook following is "ur2ndwind" please stop by and add aNY suggestions or comments, as I am a baby artist :)

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  6. Yes, I have found the same ....God has slowed me down so that I can realize that I have art hidden inside. I have been so darn busy that my creative heart hasn't had a chance to open! It's been a bittersweet journey that I am beginning to embrace. My Facebook following is "ur2ndwind" please stop by and add aNY suggestions or comments, as I am a baby artist :)

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