I spent so much life trying to make others love me. I wanted so badly to fit into the box. It just never worked. I always felt like I was begging to be noticed and never good enough, much less loved. This past year, I have finally learned (and am still learning) how to let go of needing to be loved and agreed with. It is a work in progress, but it is all good! Afraid to disagree with anyone, I pushed my feelings down because I was sure people might not like me, ignore me and leave me, and some did! However, in all honesty, I have learned how to walk away, too. As I learn how to love me, the need for others to love and/or like me seems to dissolve. The peace is very nice.
This late in life I am still learning how to love and respect me and my peace. In some ways, it is much harder than I imagined it would be, and other ways easier…but it is always worth it! I will be doing much more box shoving this year!
"Let it Go" Micheal Franti