I am not certain that there are words that would ever be able to express the struggle the emotion and the sheer determination it takes to survive heart failure and then go through open heart surgery with no guarantee it will work. I cannot count how many times I was sure this surgery was the biggest friggin’ mistake of my life, nothing and I mean nothing has hurt as bad or as long as this did. (and I have had 2 kids and 7 kidney stones, I know what hurt is!)…..But today….oh boy finally today I took my life back, I put my big girl panties on and drove myself to Leesburg, took part in an art grant review meeting, then had another meeting about curating an exhibition. (and drove myself home)
Today is the first day in a very long time I felt like I am taking my life back. My heart is still struggling and there are lots more hurdles I have to jump, but it feels spectacular to be back in the saddle again! Woo-hoo!
"Get Back" The Beatles