life, love,art. heart failure and assorted ramblings

life, love,art. heart failure and assorted ramblings

Don't Talk Like That...

I write to find out what my heart thinks....
I write to expose and work through the ugly parts of this disease, open heart surgery that was less than successful and more recently an S-ICD (internal cardiac defibrillator) implanted in my chest that will hopefully restore my heart beat in case of sudden cardiac death. I am here to celebrate my life, to uncover my fears, to hold on to love, to learn how to live a full life with heart failure, to honor my creativity, and to explore all of my emotions out loud ...before anyone can say
"Don't talk like that!"


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Tuesday, October 13, 2015

Broken is not easy.....




What, how long, why…difficult days are coming in different ways.   In the past I would recognize them by the overwhelming exhaustion.  They have changed, this is my first post op difficult day, part of it I recognize, the other part is new and different and very uncomfortable.   And the damned unanswered questions begin again.  What brought this on, how long will it last, why now?  Broken is not easy…but I am learning to fill in with gold and be beautiful for having been broken.


"Undun"  The Guess Who

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