life, love,art. heart failure and assorted ramblings

life, love,art. heart failure and assorted ramblings

Don't Talk Like That...

I write to find out what my heart thinks....
I write to expose and work through the ugly parts of this disease, open heart surgery that was less than successful and more recently an S-ICD (internal cardiac defibrillator) implanted in my chest that will hopefully restore my heart beat in case of sudden cardiac death. I am here to celebrate my life, to uncover my fears, to hold on to love, to learn how to live a full life with heart failure, to honor my creativity, and to explore all of my emotions out loud ...before anyone can say
"Don't talk like that!"


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Saturday, November 5, 2016

the choice is mine....and I will be wearing my crown more!

Whew…..I needed this!  The last few weeks have filled with unexpected things.  Some I had control of and tickled that I participated fully in the opportunity to chat with a Dr. that knows so much more about what I am going through than even I did.  The other I have no control of, as the insurance companies that I have access to will no longer cover some of the doctors I need to maintain the machine implanted in me.  The universe is giving me gentle nudges, telling me is time to begin the process of letting go of what I cannot control and holding on, loving and living the life that I can still control….my courage, humor, grace, friends, art the life I have now.  This choice this control is still mine and I will be wearing my crown a lot more!

"All We Are"  Matt Nathanson

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