life, love,art. heart failure and assorted ramblings
Don't Talk Like That...
I write to find out what my heart thinks....
I write to expose and work through the ugly parts of this raunchy disease. My words always help me understand that in this life there will be times that are crappy painful and unexpected but tucked in there are the amazingly wonderful, too. That is when I realized the only control I have over any of this is how I chose to experience them! I realized that I could understand, celebrate can survive even better when I could express these feelings with my own words of courage, humor, and grace.I am the Queen of my own life and the choice is mine! I am here to celebrate my life, to uncover my fears, to hold on to love, to grieve my losses, to laugh long and hard, and to learn how to live a full magnificent life with heart failure.
I am honoring my creativity, and exploring all of my emotions out loud ...before anyone can say....."Don't talk like that!"
Tuesday, November 15, 2016
a new capacity....
Yep…this one popped up again…. clearly I need more work….
Transformations are hard!
Different is incredibly uncomfortable! And the capacity to find a new
comfortable is emotionally wrenching!
The first inclination is always to run back to the place where it was
comfortable, happy, and heart filling, but the unforgiving reality is that
those are the exact set of circumstances that created or they were critical in
hiding the real problems. Now, I think I can go back, but I cannot go back
with the same set of “eyes” that refused to see. I cannot discount my own heart and emotions in
an effort to be the good agreeable one.
This time I have to see all sides of the relationships I am considering,
beginning, ending, keeping, or continuing.
I am falling, nope I am being shoved into something
different and I hope it will bring me a wonderful new capacity to be beautiful.