life, love,art. heart failure and assorted ramblings

life, love,art. heart failure and assorted ramblings

Don't Talk Like That...

I write to find out what my heart thinks....

I write to expose and work through the ugly parts of this raunchy disease. My words always help me understand that in this life there will be times that are crappy painful and unexpected but tucked in there are the amazingly wonderful, too. That is when I realized the only control I have over any of this is how I chose to experience them! I realized that I could understand, celebrate can survive even better when I could express these feelings with my own words of courage, humor, and grace. I am the Queen of my own life and the choice is mine!

I am here to celebrate my life, to uncover my fears, to hold on to love, to grieve my losses, to laugh long and hard, and to learn how to live a full magnificent life with heart failure.

I am honoring my creativity, and exploring all of my emotions out loud ...before anyone can say....."Don't talk like that!"



Friday, November 18, 2016

Control is where my power is....

This needs to be today’s mantra….well hell!  This needs to the mantra every day!  The further I get down this path the more I realize how very little control I have over anything!  I  used to replace the word control with the word choice or choose, feeling totally willing and able to take responsibility for myself and the choices I made., knowing I made them by considering all of information and resources available to me.  In today’s world, with the current medical industry, they make all of the choices and if you do not agree with the choices they make for you,  and then “pay for their choices” you are less of a person and unworthy of their attention or their medical care, which I am paying for.  I do have control over my own life, how I chose to live, and where I spend my limited resources.
"Funny the Way it is"  Dave Matthews Band

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