life, love,art. heart failure and assorted ramblings

life, love,art. heart failure and assorted ramblings

Don't Talk Like That...

I write to find out what my heart thinks....
I write to expose and work through the ugly parts of this disease, open heart surgery that was less than successful and more recently an S-ICD (internal cardiac defibrillator) implanted in my chest that will hopefully restore my heart beat in case of sudden cardiac death. I am here to celebrate my life, to uncover my fears, to hold on to love, to learn how to live a full life with heart failure, to honor my creativity, and to explore all of my emotions out loud ...before anyone can say
"Don't talk like that!"


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Thursday, September 18, 2014

Just plain UN-natural



Oh how I struggle to have faith in the natural process (of anything…of everything)!  Shouldn’t the natural process, in just about any life situation, just happen without so much directed effort on my part?  It feels as though sometimes the circumstances of my life take over and wear me out.  Then I find that I have to exert a great deal of energy to recover gracefully and maintain that horrible self-defined and most probably unrealistic facsimile of an appropriate respectable life.

Should any natural process be so difficult? Or maybe my expectations of “natural” are just plain un-natural.


"Every Day is a Winding Road"  Sheryl Crow

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