life, love,art. heart failure and assorted ramblings

life, love,art. heart failure and assorted ramblings

Don't Talk Like That...

I write to find out what my heart thinks....
I write to expose and work through the ugly parts of this disease, open heart surgery that was less than successful and more recently an S-ICD (internal cardiac defibrillator) implanted in my chest that will hopefully restore my heart beat in case of sudden cardiac death. I am here to celebrate my life, to uncover my fears, to hold on to love, to learn how to live a full life with heart failure, to honor my creativity, and to explore all of my emotions out loud ...before anyone can say
"Don't talk like that!"


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Thursday, September 25, 2014

I Just do Not Know it Yet.


Desperatly grasping for things that should not be, will never make them be so.
Maybe it is something deep inside of me, my subconscious or the universe saying.
this is not you, this is dangerous, this will only cause you pain.
Twice I listened to that voice and walked away, Twice I discounted my own gut and went in anyway. It failed both times.
  
Perhaps this is not an ending, but a beginning.
And I just do not know it yet...


"And Your Bird Can Sing"  The Beatles

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