life, love,art. heart failure and assorted ramblings

life, love,art. heart failure and assorted ramblings

Don't Talk Like That...

I write to find out what my heart thinks....

I write to expose and work through the ugly parts of this raunchy disease. My words always help me understand that in this life there will be times that are crappy painful and unexpected but tucked in there are the amazingly wonderful, too. That is when I realized the only control I have over any of this is how I chose to experience them! I realized that I could understand, celebrate can survive even better when I could express these feelings with my own words of courage, humor, and grace. I am the Queen of my own life and the choice is mine!

I am here to celebrate my life, to uncover my fears, to hold on to love, to grieve my losses, to laugh long and hard, and to learn how to live a full magnificent life with heart failure.

I am honoring my creativity, and exploring all of my emotions out loud ...before anyone can say....."Don't talk like that!"



Tuesday, September 2, 2014

Because I Want to

I wrestle with need vs. want on a regular basis.  The concept is not foreign to me.  I see need as a bad thing. Need robs me of my common sense, my rational thinking, it blurs sound judgment.
There are people, feelings, things that I want, but I will not ever allow myself to need them and there is a huge difference. Wanting lets me make choices. People and things are in my life because I freely chose.  I Made a conscious decision.
Wanting means I have freely chosen. No more needing.
I am letting go of everything about needing, making room for the new experiences of  wanting.  Wanting to dance, to love, to create and bring images from my imagination into the world. Wanting to make a difference by encouraging other marvelous creatives to do the same.  Not because I need to, but because I want to.

"Gone (going)"   Jack Johnson

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