life, love,art. heart failure and assorted ramblings

life, love,art. heart failure and assorted ramblings

Don't Talk Like That...

I write to find out what my heart thinks....
I write to expose and work through the ugly parts of this disease, open heart surgery that was less than successful and more recently an S-ICD (internal cardiac defibrillator) implanted in my chest that will hopefully restore my heart beat in case of sudden cardiac death. I am here to celebrate my life, to uncover my fears, to hold on to love, to learn how to live a full life with heart failure, to honor my creativity, and to explore all of my emotions out loud ...before anyone can say
"Don't talk like that!"


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Saturday, October 29, 2016

This is not giving up!

Every once in a great while the Universe conspires to let me know it is there and working….and at times screaming at me.  Yesterday it screamed at me!   The most unlikely set of circumstances were put into motion that I could not ignore.  Synchronicity was working in outrageous ways that could not be ignored!  All I had to do was walk in that path that was placed in front of me.  I wish I could explain to you how truly scary it was!  Afraid I would receive condemnation. Perhaps even more afraid that I might receive validation for that voice in my heart whose whispers keep getting louder and more insistent is right.

And all I can say is YES….yes to every bit of it.  Yes the whispers are valid….Yes the fear is real…YES…I have choices.  Yes…this is part of my life!  This is not giving up….this is living!

"Ants Marching"  Dave Mathews Band
  I had the magnificent opportunity to sit and talk to Dr. Tim Ihrig...I am so very grateful! 


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