life, love,art. heart failure and assorted ramblings

life, love,art. heart failure and assorted ramblings

Don't Talk Like That...

I write to find out what my heart thinks....
I write to expose and work through the ugly parts of this disease, open heart surgery that was less than successful and more recently an S-ICD (internal cardiac defibrillator) implanted in my chest that will hopefully restore my heart beat in case of sudden cardiac death. I am here to celebrate my life, to uncover my fears, to hold on to love, to learn how to live a full life with heart failure, to honor my creativity, and to explore all of my emotions out loud ...before anyone can say
"Don't talk like that!"


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Monday, October 10, 2016

it is my choice.....

I am so grateful to have friends that actually, really and without judgment know me.  They are incredible gifts in my life. I am learning I no longer need to please everyone; I no longer need everyone to like me.  I am becoming strong enough to say no when I am uncomfortable.  The lesson has been to recognize before it is too late, those that function in chaos, those that are incapable to seeing and feeling others pain and those that suck my precious energy.  I am not saying I am right and they are wrong, it is their life, their choices, but I do not need to understand it or be a part of it. If it is uncomfortable I do not need to justify my feelings to anyone but me.  I honor them, I honor their choices, but I do not have to participate in them physically, spiritually or emotionally.
"Best Friends"  Jason Mraz

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