life, love,art. heart failure and assorted ramblings

life, love,art. heart failure and assorted ramblings

Don't Talk Like That...

I write to find out what my heart thinks....
I write to expose and work through the ugly parts of this disease, open heart surgery that was less than successful and more recently an S-ICD (internal cardiac defibrillator) implanted in my chest that will hopefully restore my heart beat in case of sudden cardiac death. I am here to celebrate my life, to uncover my fears, to hold on to love, to learn how to live a full life with heart failure, to honor my creativity, and to explore all of my emotions out loud ...before anyone can say
"Don't talk like that!"


.

.
Music is loading really slow lately...sorry...

Saturday, October 8, 2016

Lukewarm is no good....

It feels like such a long time since I have been truly enthusiastic about life.  I have done things that I love with creatives, friends, and artists that I love, but it has all been done before.  I think maybe I have  desperately hanging on to the things I know will work, that I know are fun, that I know are safe.  Am I so afraid of failing that I only do the things I know will please others and be successful?  Have I given up the excitement of trying something new? Am I afraid of risking and  falling flat on my face, so afraid of failing that I do not even try anymore?  Lukewarm was OK for a while, but not now……
"Walk the Walk"  Eric Bibb

No comments:

Post a Comment