life, love,art. heart failure and assorted ramblings

life, love,art. heart failure and assorted ramblings

Don't Talk Like That...

I write to find out what my heart thinks....
I write to expose and work through the ugly parts of this disease, open heart surgery that was less than successful and more recently an S-ICD (internal cardiac defibrillator) implanted in my chest that will hopefully restore my heart beat in case of sudden cardiac death. I am here to celebrate my life, to uncover my fears, to hold on to love, to learn how to live a full life with heart failure, to honor my creativity, and to explore all of my emotions out loud ...before anyone can say
"Don't talk like that!"


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Thursday, October 13, 2016

Again...and again....and again!

I am embarrassed to admit it….but yes.  At one time my most spectacular screw ups were exactly what I wanted. I did not go into them thinking I was going to screw up that bad but I did!  And yes if I really practiced what I preached…even the things in life I have regretted I should be able to smugly stand here and say “yes I screwed up”, “I broke it” or “I should not have”  but I learned a valuable life lesson.  But what if I did not learn a damn thing, what if I just roar back in there and do it again, and again, and again?

I guess at this point I should say I would not do it that way again, but  Nahhhhh….I would most likely do it exactly the same way!
"There she Goes"  OrtoPilot

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