life, love,art. heart failure and assorted ramblings
Don't Talk Like That...
I write to find out what my heart thinks.... I write to expose and work through the ugly parts of this disease, open heart surgery that was less than successful and more recently an S-ICD (internal cardiac defibrillator) implanted in my chest that will hopefully restore my heart beat in case of sudden cardiac death. I am here to celebrate my life, to uncover my fears, to hold on to love, to learn how to live a full life with heart failure, to honor my creativity, and to explore all of my emotions out loud ...before anyone can say "Don't talk like that!"
Thursday, August 18, 2016
Head vs. Heart
My heart is broken, but it is still strong and healing. It is my head that I need to worry about. My head is where I have stashed all of the memories that still hurt me, they are the ones that cut through me like a razor blade.
My head keeps me awake all night, makes me cry and destroys me over and over and over again. I just need to convince my head to let go, because my heart already knows how to heal.