I understand that most people may not “get” this, but my
life is full of sound reasoning supporting it.
As an artist, framer, small business owner I spent a significant part of
my life “marketing” …vying for your attention and dollars. Marketing is the business acceptable code word
for begging for your attention. I paid professional
PR companies to do it for me, I paid to be judged to get my work in art
festivals, I paid (consignment) to be in galleries, I paid for logo designs and
websites for classes I taught. I have
spent a lifetime “chasing” people with my money and time to like me. I smiled, agreed, shook hands, laughed at horrible jokes, diplomatically tiptoed around every inflammatory issue so I would not offend anyone. It is not surprising that some of those
habits/or aversion to those habits spilled into my personal life over the
years.
My life has been about getting people to like me and my work,
it did not matter what I thought about myself.
So now this late in my life, I am finally learning that I cannot make
anyone like or love me…I am just now figuring out that I am important, I matter,
too.
"Breaking Silence" Janis Ian
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