And I am finally beginning to believe it! There have been weeks I was not sure and then more weeks that I begged just to have the life I had before open heart surgery back (I would take anything, other than the pain and grief I had). And although before was not the greatest situation, I could function without anyone knowing. I could keep up the ruse long just long enough to fool you, but that was all I really needed to do. The time came several months ago, it got really hard and I knew I could not keep up the lie any longer. But today, today…. finally today, I believe I will go on, I do not know how or if it will get better than it is today, but all I need to know today is that this has not ruined me!
"We May Never Pass this Way Again" Seals & Crofts