life, love,art. heart failure and assorted ramblings

life, love,art. heart failure and assorted ramblings

Don't Talk Like That...

I write to find out what my heart thinks....
I write to expose and work through the ugly parts of this disease, open heart surgery that was less than successful and more recently an S-ICD (internal cardiac defibrillator) implanted in my chest that will hopefully restore my heart beat in case of sudden cardiac death. I am here to celebrate my life, to uncover my fears, to hold on to love, to learn how to live a full life with heart failure, to honor my creativity, and to explore all of my emotions out loud ...before anyone can say
"Don't talk like that!"


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Thursday, September 10, 2015

I Can do This.....

I can do this….I can do this….I can do this…..I can do this…. Every day is different, harder in some ways, easier in others.  The desire to have my life back is stronger and stronger, but the reality is my body/my heart still is not letting me do what I want to do and it is so frustrating.  The ache and soreness in my ribs and chest suck every ounce of physical energy out of me.  I have to concentrate on keeping my emotional energy high, I have to find those things that give me purpose and direction and immerse myself in the joy of those accomplishments.

"Make it Mine"  Jason Mraz

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