life, love,art. heart failure and assorted ramblings

life, love,art. heart failure and assorted ramblings

Don't Talk Like That...

I write to find out what my heart thinks....

I write to expose and work through the ugly parts of this raunchy disease. My words always help me understand that in this life there will be times that are crappy painful and unexpected but tucked in there are the amazingly wonderful, too. That is when I realized the only control I have over any of this is how I chose to experience them! I realized that I could understand, celebrate can survive even better when I could express these feelings with my own words of courage, humor, and grace. I am the Queen of my own life and the choice is mine!

I am here to celebrate my life, to uncover my fears, to hold on to love, to grieve my losses, to laugh long and hard, and to learn how to live a full magnificent life with heart failure.

I am honoring my creativity, and exploring all of my emotions out loud ...before anyone can say....."Don't talk like that!"



Friday, September 25, 2015

Fear is sinister!

Where have I been?  I know this!  But could not apply is to my life, the heart surgery and the heinous waiting I am doing now, waiting to find out if there was or will be any improvement!  Fear has quite literally eaten me alive!  “Fear hates uncertain outcome” whew…… I am engaged in the biggest uncertain outcome of my life….no wonder life has been so weird and I have felt so unlike me.  I know and have known for the best part of my life how damaging fear is.  It has been so important for me to know that I had it tattooed on my foot thinking it would be a constant reminder, not to let fear grab hold of me.  But fear is sinister, it takes vigilance!  So now I need to get creative and deal with it!
"Change the World"  Eric Clapton

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