life, love,art. heart failure and assorted ramblings

life, love,art. heart failure and assorted ramblings

Don't Talk Like That...

I write to find out what my heart thinks....

I write to expose and work through the ugly parts of this raunchy disease. My words always help me understand that in this life there will be times that are crappy painful and unexpected but tucked in there are the amazingly wonderful, too. That is when I realized the only control I have over any of this is how I chose to experience them! I realized that I could understand, celebrate can survive even better when I could express these feelings with my own words of courage, humor, and grace. I am the Queen of my own life and the choice is mine!

I am here to celebrate my life, to uncover my fears, to hold on to love, to grieve my losses, to laugh long and hard, and to learn how to live a full magnificent life with heart failure.

I am honoring my creativity, and exploring all of my emotions out loud ...before anyone can say....."Don't talk like that!"



Monday, September 12, 2016

Fix me....

Some of this lousy self-expression and contemplation blog turned over a vulgar bit of my own behavior. As much as I hate it, there is no denying that it exists and that I have knowingly contributed to it.  I have never actively participated in “breaking others” but I have without question talked about other’s frustration and grief as a way to bolster my “thank goodness….it is not just me….I am not the only one whose life sucks” sick way of feeling better about myself.  I am guilty of parlaying another’s pain into a topic of conversation when my own grief and heartache was just too much for me to talk about. I had no idea how low I would stoop to feel better.  I am embarrassed and ashamed of myself.
"Walk the Walk"  Eric Bibb

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