life, love,art. heart failure and assorted ramblings

life, love,art. heart failure and assorted ramblings

Don't Talk Like That...

I write to find out what my heart thinks....
I write to expose and work through the ugly parts of this disease, open heart surgery that was less than successful and more recently an S-ICD (internal cardiac defibrillator) implanted in my chest that will hopefully restore my heart beat in case of sudden cardiac death. I am here to celebrate my life, to uncover my fears, to hold on to love, to learn how to live a full life with heart failure, to honor my creativity, and to explore all of my emotions out loud ...before anyone can say
"Don't talk like that!"


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Wednesday, September 7, 2016

but...I'm Tired....




I had no idea exactly how long it would take me, but I was always pretty sure with time and energy I could do it.  My heart is screaming this morning, you are out of both, bitch!  You have screwed around, wasted life, and now the only thing you can take over, is your own life and your feelings…Perhaps... that was all I was supposed to do anyway.  Even that is much harder than I expected, and I am still so tired.

"Defying Gravity" Lea Michelle

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