life, love,art. heart failure and assorted ramblings

life, love,art. heart failure and assorted ramblings

Don't Talk Like That...

I write to find out what my heart thinks....
I write to expose and work through the ugly parts of this disease, open heart surgery that was less than successful and more recently an S-ICD (internal cardiac defibrillator) implanted in my chest that will hopefully restore my heart beat in case of sudden cardiac death. I am here to celebrate my life, to uncover my fears, to hold on to love, to learn how to live a full life with heart failure, to honor my creativity, and to explore all of my emotions out loud ...before anyone can say
"Don't talk like that!"


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Sunday, May 31, 2015

I have secrets

I always thought that, a great life was a life that was free, open and no secrets.  I have no idea where that came from….but it has always been a part of my thinking... but now, I do not think it is necessarily so. 

As I grow older, I am learning that not all secrets are bad things. There are parts of me that are the best and strongest when they are kept on my insides, not shared or exposed to the world for judgment, comment and scrutiny. My secrets are what make me, ME!  I do not need other people to agree with me, support me or understand me.  I hold on dearly to the feelings and the secrets that make my heart sing.  I am not ready to risk others not liking them.


"Secret"  Maroon 5

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