life, love,art. heart failure and assorted ramblings

life, love,art. heart failure and assorted ramblings

Don't Talk Like That...

I write to find out what my heart thinks....
I write to expose and work through the ugly parts of this disease, open heart surgery that was less than successful and more recently an S-ICD (internal cardiac defibrillator) implanted in my chest that will hopefully restore my heart beat in case of sudden cardiac death. I am here to celebrate my life, to uncover my fears, to hold on to love, to learn how to live a full life with heart failure, to honor my creativity, and to explore all of my emotions out loud ...before anyone can say
"Don't talk like that!"


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Sunday, September 3, 2017

but...if you try sometimes...

This may very well be the secret of life!  So many times what I “want” could very possibly be the ruination of me, then other times it just might be the difference between living and existing.  Making those decisions now has become even more difficult than it used to be.  In the past it was just plain fear that ruled my decision making, now the fear has somehow morphed to “can I physically” do it…and I am angry that I allowed fear so much power over me in the past.  So now I am embracing the Rolling Stones anthem, and learning that what I need will come, if I try sometimes, and I will be grateful!

"You Get What You Need"  Rolling Stones

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