life, love,art. heart failure and assorted ramblings

life, love,art. heart failure and assorted ramblings

Don't Talk Like That...

I write to find out what my heart thinks....
I write to expose and work through the ugly parts of this disease, open heart surgery that was less than successful and more recently an S-ICD (internal cardiac defibrillator) implanted in my chest that will hopefully restore my heart beat in case of sudden cardiac death. I am here to celebrate my life, to uncover my fears, to hold on to love, to learn how to live a full life with heart failure, to honor my creativity, and to explore all of my emotions out loud ...before anyone can say
"Don't talk like that!"


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Wednesday, January 28, 2015

Whisper....Whisper....Whisper

There she goes again…..
There are days that fear takes over, and it has nothing to do with how good I feel, how much success I have had, or where I am.  Fear is a wicked little thing that sees a minute crack in my self-esteem and it rushes in consuming all of my confidence and will.  Then it grows and grows and grows until I am filled with self-doubt and am paralyzed. 
I cannot predict when that fear arrives, all I know is when it is here I have just got to focus on that little spark.

whisper….whisper…whisper
"There She Goes" ortoPilot

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