life, love,art. heart failure and assorted ramblings

life, love,art. heart failure and assorted ramblings

Don't Talk Like That...

I write to find out what my heart thinks....
I write to expose and work through the ugly parts of this disease, open heart surgery that was less than successful and more recently an S-ICD (internal cardiac defibrillator) implanted in my chest that will hopefully restore my heart beat in case of sudden cardiac death. I am here to celebrate my life, to uncover my fears, to hold on to love, to learn how to live a full life with heart failure, to honor my creativity, and to explore all of my emotions out loud ...before anyone can say
"Don't talk like that!"


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Sunday, January 18, 2015

Only 2 choices...

There are always 2 choices.
Connect with the negative or NOT, there is no halfway point. When walking into a difficult situation where I know the personalities involved, it does not take a rocket scientist to figure out what the likely outcomes will be….notice I did not say the definite outcomes.  I will always hold out just a little hope for creativity and change.  But for the most part…when hearts are not open to authentic honest creative new solutions, then it is fairly obvious what the outcomes will be. I cannot take the chance of deliberately connecting to the negativity, scarcity and fear. No matter how much I want it to be different ….it most likely, never will.  All of my connections have to be authentic, positive and full.

"Some People's Lives"  Janis Ian
"The people that trigger my negative emotions are messengers.  They are messengers for the unhealed parts of my being."

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