life, love,art. heart failure and assorted ramblings

life, love,art. heart failure and assorted ramblings

Don't Talk Like That...

I write to find out what my heart thinks....
I write to expose and work through the ugly parts of this disease, open heart surgery that was less than successful and more recently an S-ICD (internal cardiac defibrillator) implanted in my chest that will hopefully restore my heart beat in case of sudden cardiac death. I am here to celebrate my life, to uncover my fears, to hold on to love, to learn how to live a full life with heart failure, to honor my creativity, and to explore all of my emotions out loud ...before anyone can say
"Don't talk like that!"


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Sunday, January 4, 2015

It's Just the Road of my Heart


This is a big one for this year and every year!  I need to just need to get used to being afraid and vulnerable!

1.  My art... I need to just let it flow, forget what other people think, do the work that my heart screams for.

2.  Love... I need to quit being afraid of listening to it. I need to quit judging the right and the wrong of it,

3. The medical industry... I have got to understand, that they are the ones afraid.  I need to learn how to stand up for what is good for me and my life.

My heart knows what I need, I just need to listen.  Yes I am afraid, and yes, I know how vulnerable I am.  It is the road of my heart.  It’s smooth, it’s firm, it buckles, it falls apart, and then begins all over again.  Never a straight line. I am courageous!


"Road of the Heart"  Ann Reed

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