life, love,art. heart failure and assorted ramblings

life, love,art. heart failure and assorted ramblings

Don't Talk Like That...

I write to find out what my heart thinks....
I write to expose and work through the ugly parts of this disease, open heart surgery that was less than successful and more recently an S-ICD (internal cardiac defibrillator) implanted in my chest that will hopefully restore my heart beat in case of sudden cardiac death. I am here to celebrate my life, to uncover my fears, to hold on to love, to learn how to live a full life with heart failure, to honor my creativity, and to explore all of my emotions out loud ...before anyone can say
"Don't talk like that!"


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Thursday, January 8, 2015


The Art Journal group pushes. Until this week it pushed me creatively. It always gave me an opportunity to try different mediums and styles. Just a small page, to express another artist’s idea in any style or medium I want to try. But this month…oh boy this month I drew the art journal that wants me to share my “monsters” to identify them, bring them into the light and expose them. Through AW I have learned how to identify and manage the “crazymakers” in my life, and that was how I first approached this, but then I realized that monsters and crazymakers are not the same thing. I can choose who, how many or how often I allow crazymakers (people) in my life…MONSTERS have a life of their own, they are not people, they are not necessarily real, but the damage they can create is real. This month’s journal has made me openly wrestle with the fact that the monster and the healing are the same creature.

"Ironic"  Alanis Morissette

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