life, love,art. heart failure and assorted ramblings

life, love,art. heart failure and assorted ramblings

Don't Talk Like That...

I write to find out what my heart thinks....
I write to expose and work through the ugly parts of this disease, open heart surgery that was less than successful and more recently an S-ICD (internal cardiac defibrillator) implanted in my chest that will hopefully restore my heart beat in case of sudden cardiac death. I am here to celebrate my life, to uncover my fears, to hold on to love, to learn how to live a full life with heart failure, to honor my creativity, and to explore all of my emotions out loud ...before anyone can say
"Don't talk like that!"


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Friday, January 2, 2015

It’s Ok to be a glow stick....

It’s Ok to be a glow stick; sometimes we need to break before we shine!
The last quarter of last year felt like a “broken” marathon! My Mother died….I was downgraded to Stage 3 class C heart failure and they keep talking about invasive surgical procedures,….my insurance company dropped my cardiologist and hospital. (note: all of you complaining about “Obama” care have absolutely NO IDEA what you are talking about)…Overwhelmed with medications that promote depression and make me tired and lethargic.

And then….they call me NON-COMPLIANT!                                                  REALLY???? 
It is a New Year….
So when I come back shining you will know,
I had to break (again) first! 
They will NOT win!
I will NOT give in to this.
I will not stop dreaming!
I am strong....I will shine!


"Things that Stop You Dreaming"  Passenger


"The Higher purpose of Conflict"

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