life, love,art. heart failure and assorted ramblings

life, love,art. heart failure and assorted ramblings

Don't Talk Like That...

I write to find out what my heart thinks....

I write to expose and work through the ugly parts of this raunchy disease. My words always help me understand that in this life there will be times that are crappy painful and unexpected but tucked in there are the amazingly wonderful, too. That is when I realized the only control I have over any of this is how I chose to experience them! I realized that I could understand, celebrate can survive even better when I could express these feelings with my own words of courage, humor, and grace. I am the Queen of my own life and the choice is mine!

I am here to celebrate my life, to uncover my fears, to hold on to love, to grieve my losses, to laugh long and hard, and to learn how to live a full magnificent life with heart failure.

I am honoring my creativity, and exploring all of my emotions out loud ...before anyone can say....."Don't talk like that!"



Saturday, January 3, 2015

I think this is what the doctors call "denial".

Another artist’s video I saw, says art, her art lets her express emotions and then walk away from them.  I am not certain I have ever heard that explained so well.  She finally put amazing words to an indescribable feeling. 

I was dealt a medical blow and there it is all over the canvas.  I do not know if the work is good or not, and quite frankly it does not matter, what I do know is that all of those negative, hurtful feelings are there on the canvas and not in me. I can stand back and look at them, rather than allowing them to stay inside of me causing fear and pain. 

I am not afraid, and the doctor keeps calling it denial, they truly no nothing about me. 
And…..Nude Nite is coming… is a 2-fer!  Even better!
"Heal Yourself"  Ruthie Foster

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