life, love,art. heart failure and assorted ramblings

life, love,art. heart failure and assorted ramblings

Don't Talk Like That...

I write to find out what my heart thinks....
I write to expose and work through the ugly parts of this disease, open heart surgery that was less than successful and more recently an S-ICD (internal cardiac defibrillator) implanted in my chest that will hopefully restore my heart beat in case of sudden cardiac death. I am here to celebrate my life, to uncover my fears, to hold on to love, to learn how to live a full life with heart failure, to honor my creativity, and to explore all of my emotions out loud ...before anyone can say
"Don't talk like that!"


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Wednesday, June 7, 2017

damn it...

…and again… damn it…fluid in my lungs!  Double up on the nebulizer…up the Lasix for a few days…..get the fluid out before it gets ugly! And orders to not over-do…what the hell is “over-do”…Let’s see I had a wild weekend of depravity …. teaching one Artist Way class,  last night I made a batch of yogurt and just regular house chore stuff….REALLY….I mean REALLY…which of these strenuous activities should I omit? Of course, if I get to choose…..yep you know it….the house chores!!!
I do not think it has anything to do with my over-doing…I think it just happens every now and again for the hell of it….just to aggravate me!
"F#@k it"

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