or is it memorex….…..or is it just fear.
It is hard to know sometimes what this body is or is not going to do. It does not seem to be my body anymore. It operates totally independent of my wants, needs and wishes…. and that is the one of most difficult parts of this! It is the question I ask myself each time I want to do something and I am not so sure (or am afraid) that I will not be able to. So rather than risk failure or worse “pay” for it with absolute inability to do anything for the next day or so. I find myself “conserving energy” or at least that seems to be the acceptable medical explanation for giving up, making tradeoffs and deciding what are the things that I really want to accomplish. Is it giving up…giving in...or is it just fear?
"You Can't Rush....." Trevor Hall