life, love,art. heart failure and assorted ramblings

life, love,art. heart failure and assorted ramblings

Don't Talk Like That...

I write to find out what my heart thinks....
I write to expose and work through the ugly parts of this disease, open heart surgery that was less than successful and more recently an S-ICD (internal cardiac defibrillator) implanted in my chest that will hopefully restore my heart beat in case of sudden cardiac death. I am here to celebrate my life, to uncover my fears, to hold on to love, to learn how to live a full life with heart failure, to honor my creativity, and to explore all of my emotions out loud ...before anyone can say
"Don't talk like that!"


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Tuesday, December 13, 2016

They know....

They know....I am not strong, and I am most definitely afraid!  and…..I write! 
It feels like all of those parts of life and death that I have ignored, are standing just outside the door….and I do not want to open the door….not yet!  I have many more rules to break, barriers to go beyond, and good creative stuff to do! But just so you know….all those that accuse me of denial, I understand completely, I always have,I did not show it the way that was expected I chose to face the fear and move forward anyway with the strength, energy and love I have now.  Yes I am afraid! and yes, they already know ....."no fear" is tattoed on my foot...and I repeat silently, constantly to myself  "no fear"

"They Know"  Eric Bibb

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