I am not giving up, I am living! Today was the day I have been hoping for, wishing for, begging the Universe for! Today is the day I officially stepped off of the curative-care medical merry-go-round and can finally, finally begin living the best life I can. No more PET scans, heart caths, echo-cardiograms, stress tests, surgeries, defibrillators, hospitals, cardiologists or endless insurance/doctor billing nightmares. Today I officially begin palliative care! Not yet hospice, (got way too much to do before I start that) although this palliative care will fold into it seamlessly when it is time. Today (well technically Jan.1, 2017) I begin living my amazing life from the place where I can quit emotionally, physically and financially chasing the ridiculous naïve goal of curing heart failure. Today is the day I get to begin living the best life possible with the medical (medicine) help I need! NOW I stop wasting my energy, my time and my money on the manic struggle of curing the incurable and begin spending all I have, every single bit of it…. on living…playing…loving…and creating! Today the rest of my amazing wonderful life begins! I am not giving up….I am starting over with a new goal of having the most remarkable life I can possibly have!
"There She Goes" OrtoPilot