life, love,art. heart failure and assorted ramblings
Don't Talk Like That...
I write to find out what my heart thinks....
I write to expose and work through the ugly parts of this raunchy disease. My words always help me understand that in this life there will be times that are crappy painful and unexpected but tucked in there are the amazingly wonderful, too. That is when I realized the only control I have over any of this is how I chose to experience them! I realized that I could understand, celebrate can survive even better when I could express these feelings with my own words of courage, humor, and grace.I am the Queen of my own life and the choice is mine! I am here to celebrate my life, to uncover my fears, to hold on to love, to grieve my losses, to laugh long and hard, and to learn how to live a full magnificent life with heart failure.
I am honoring my creativity, and exploring all of my emotions out loud ...before anyone can say....."Don't talk like that!"
Monday, December 26, 2016
i am getting closer....
Looking over the past few years, I suspect most of my
frustration came from not being responsible for the quality of my life. But…here is where things kind of got screwed
up…I think. When you do what everyone
says you should do, follow the advice of all of the professionals, I should get
better and feel better. I remember a
time where I waited for test results to determine how I felt. Giving away all of my power to people I did
not know and a set of numbers on a piece of paper. It is a difficult balance to figure out and
practice. I am getting closer!
"Heal the Pain" George Micheal
(honoring the life of George Micheal, his music. Loosing life Christmas Day, to heart failure)