life, love,art. heart failure and assorted ramblings

life, love,art. heart failure and assorted ramblings

Don't Talk Like That...

I write to find out what my heart thinks....
I write to expose and work through the ugly parts of this disease, open heart surgery that was less than successful and more recently an S-ICD (internal cardiac defibrillator) implanted in my chest that will hopefully restore my heart beat in case of sudden cardiac death. I am here to celebrate my life, to uncover my fears, to hold on to love, to learn how to live a full life with heart failure, to honor my creativity, and to explore all of my emotions out loud ...before anyone can say
"Don't talk like that!"


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Friday, December 18, 2015

One more…last time…finally….this is it…no more.




One more…last time…finally….this is it…no more.  A huge sense of apprehension accompanies this ICD surgery.   I think there will be a great deal of comfort of knowing my heart has a “back up” system.  There is also a great deal of relief in claiming this as the last surgery to keep this going.  This year and these surgeries have and will give me the best quality of life available.  It is up to me how I want to use this life, I have so much more to do!

                   "Defying Gravity"  Lea Michelle

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