life, love,art. heart failure and assorted ramblings

life, love,art. heart failure and assorted ramblings

Don't Talk Like That...

I write to find out what my heart thinks....

I write to expose and work through the ugly parts of this raunchy disease. My words always help me understand that in this life there will be times that are crappy painful and unexpected but tucked in there are the amazingly wonderful, too. That is when I realized the only control I have over any of this is how I chose to experience them! I realized that I could understand, celebrate can survive even better when I could express these feelings with my own words of courage, humor, and grace. I am the Queen of my own life and the choice is mine!

I am here to celebrate my life, to uncover my fears, to hold on to love, to grieve my losses, to laugh long and hard, and to learn how to live a full magnificent life with heart failure.

I am honoring my creativity, and exploring all of my emotions out loud ...before anyone can say....."Don't talk like that!"


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Tuesday, December 8, 2015

I passed....

I had an EKG this morning for the sole purpose of measuring things to determine if I fit all of the criteria for a newer kind of ICD implant.  This hoo-ey –doo-ey  ICD has leads will not have to be threaded directly into my heart but will function just as well outside my heart without risking infection and more damage.

I passed….so surgery is on for the 21st!  This is the last surgery....the last invasive procedure...the last...from here on out I am on my my own, I have given it all I have, I did it all.  It is all on me now and swear I will live and create, and love!

"I Lived"    New Republic

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