life, love,art. heart failure and assorted ramblings

life, love,art. heart failure and assorted ramblings

Don't Talk Like That...

I write to find out what my heart thinks....
I write to expose and work through the ugly parts of this disease, open heart surgery that was less than successful and more recently an S-ICD (internal cardiac defibrillator) implanted in my chest that will hopefully restore my heart beat in case of sudden cardiac death. I am here to celebrate my life, to uncover my fears, to hold on to love, to learn how to live a full life with heart failure, to honor my creativity, and to explore all of my emotions out loud ...before anyone can say
"Don't talk like that!"


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Wednesday, March 4, 2015

Naked and Exposed

I feel vulnerable, naked and exposed! 

You would think After so many many years of facilitating the Artist’s Way you would think another  first class is just that another first class.  As each new group gets ready to start, IT begins….. I am scared to death, my heart pounds, I panic, I sweat, my throat is dry and my voice cracks! I wonder if they will notice.  Every fear you can imagine is lurking just under my skin. The terror is overwhelming, but I know on the other side of the fear, there is another unique and incredible journey waiting for me with creative experiences with new friends.

There is a new electricity and energy filling my heart!

"Say (All I Need)"  One Republic

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