life, love,art. heart failure and assorted ramblings

life, love,art. heart failure and assorted ramblings

Don't Talk Like That...

I write to find out what my heart thinks....
I write to expose and work through the ugly parts of this disease, open heart surgery that was less than successful and more recently an S-ICD (internal cardiac defibrillator) implanted in my chest that will hopefully restore my heart beat in case of sudden cardiac death. I am here to celebrate my life, to uncover my fears, to hold on to love, to learn how to live a full life with heart failure, to honor my creativity, and to explore all of my emotions out loud ...before anyone can say
"Don't talk like that!"


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Sunday, March 8, 2015

I don't Know


This year’s art journal group is a really serious and deep bunch. Once a month I am forced to confront some really profound life issues, even when I don’t want too!  I am still not sure if that is a good or bad thing, but this  month the subject of my piece is “I Don’t Know”…and I am just leaving it at that!

"What does it mean?  I don't know.  
Really I don't know and it is not from lack of trying. Religion, philosophers, gurus, counselors, books, endless hours of meditation, reading and study...and I really do not know.
What happens to me if I never figure out, what it means?
What would happen if it does not mean anything?
Who would care?
Does God?  Other people, or is it just me?"

"Closer to Fine"  Indigo Girls

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