life, love,art. heart failure and assorted ramblings

life, love,art. heart failure and assorted ramblings

Don't Talk Like That...

I write to find out what my heart thinks....
I write to expose and work through the ugly parts of this disease, open heart surgery that was less than successful and more recently an S-ICD (internal cardiac defibrillator) implanted in my chest that will hopefully restore my heart beat in case of sudden cardiac death. I am here to celebrate my life, to uncover my fears, to hold on to love, to learn how to live a full life with heart failure, to honor my creativity, and to explore all of my emotions out loud ...before anyone can say
"Don't talk like that!"


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Monday, May 19, 2014

Miracles


Maybe the miracle is my life, my art, my love and I am just expecting too much....
Maybe I need to spend more time rejoicing in all that I have.
Maybe I should be chasing the life that I have control of rather than the cures that someone else controls. Control that I have to schedule, and pay for.
Is that how healing really happens?
I do not recall a single miracle that required an appointment or a co-pay.  Am I looking in the wrong place for healing?
Where is my Fairy Godmother?  I need you now!


"Iris"  The Goo-Goo Dolls
"And I don't want the world to see me, 'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken, I just want you to know who I am"

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