life, love,art. heart failure and assorted ramblings
Don't Talk Like That...
I write to find out what my heart thinks.... I write to expose and work through the ugly parts of this disease, open heart surgery that was less than successful and more recently an S-ICD (internal cardiac defibrillator) implanted in my chest that will hopefully restore my heart beat in case of sudden cardiac death. I am here to celebrate my life, to uncover my fears, to hold on to love, to learn how to live a full life with heart failure, to honor my creativity, and to explore all of my emotions out loud ...before anyone can say "Don't talk like that!"
Wednesday, May 14, 2014
I am on a journey...
and oh boy....I would give my right elbow to just have the tiniest clue of just what my destination will be. I preach regularly about living in the NOW and I know all of the cliches' about it is not the destination but the journey, and yes...I get that. But please know that I think there must be a destination in the picture before the journey can have meaning. And although I do not want to over emphasize the destination or minimize the importance of living in the NOW, I am becoming keenly aware of how important it is to have some kind of destination or goal. My recent work with "The Desire Map" by Danielle LaPorte has been extremely helpful in melding future goals and living fully in the NOW but I am still struggling with the concept. I intellectually understand it, the frustration presents itself in applying it to my life.