life, love,art. heart failure and assorted ramblings

life, love,art. heart failure and assorted ramblings

Don't Talk Like That...

I write to find out what my heart thinks....
I write to expose and work through the ugly parts of this disease, open heart surgery that was less than successful and more recently an S-ICD (internal cardiac defibrillator) implanted in my chest that will hopefully restore my heart beat in case of sudden cardiac death. I am here to celebrate my life, to uncover my fears, to hold on to love, to learn how to live a full life with heart failure, to honor my creativity, and to explore all of my emotions out loud ...before anyone can say
"Don't talk like that!"


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Saturday, May 24, 2014

just breathe....

Sometimes, it is hard not to want to jump ahead.
I feel like this is a giant chess game....
If I do this, perhaps it will solve this, but if it does not....Then we will do that....
And if that doesn't work well then we will talk about it later
Sometimes, I want to know what the "later" is right now!
I need to plan, prepare, get ready, get everyone else ready.
Then I realize...
I am screwing up my now..
Right NOW, I just need to live, smile, love!
Just keep breathing....

"Keep Breathing"   Ingrid Michealson        

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