Holy Crap…REALLY?
This continues to be the most difficult thing for me to do. I was raised to believe that emotional
weakness was one of the worst characteristics anyone could have. If you were a woman you were allowed a very
small amount of tolerable emotion, but there was a definite limit. I was “trained” be the strong one, never show emotion, or let anyone see your weakness. I grew up
in an incredibly dysfunctional family, and to just survive was truly grueling but
it may have been the one thing that saved me.
It was an incredible unintentional strength and armor builder!
This vulnerable thing turns out to be one of my many major
flaws and one I have consistently been aware of and working on. I have read and studied this ad nauseam. The
single one consistent issue all of the experts seem to agree on is that “the
only answer is recklessly discard more armor” or the emotional equivalent.
I have tried, and tried and tried.
Every time I open up, let it out, let it in…it all but destroys me
emotionally. And so I continue to remain
armored up and strong.
"All That We Let In" Indigo Girls
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