life, love,art. heart failure and assorted ramblings

life, love,art. heart failure and assorted ramblings

Don't Talk Like That...

I write to find out what my heart thinks....
I write to expose and work through the ugly parts of this disease, open heart surgery that was less than successful and more recently an S-ICD (internal cardiac defibrillator) implanted in my chest that will hopefully restore my heart beat in case of sudden cardiac death. I am here to celebrate my life, to uncover my fears, to hold on to love, to learn how to live a full life with heart failure, to honor my creativity, and to explore all of my emotions out loud ...before anyone can say
"Don't talk like that!"


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Saturday, July 19, 2014

Just Keep Breathing

One of those days…after several “nothing could go wrong” great time days, the "you will pay for this” days have arrived.  I feel like I have been held hostage, tip toeing around to maintain a happy balance. I start  making changes and the rebellions begin. Will I ever be good enough or strong enough?  I have got to learn how to love me. It is the one most important relationship I will ever have. There is so much that I am going to have to do alone in the future.  I have got to learn how to do this!  Love myself..
But Right now.....
I just have to keep breathing….


"Keep Breathing"  Ingrid Michaelson

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