life, love,art. heart failure and assorted ramblings

life, love,art. heart failure and assorted ramblings

Don't Talk Like That...

I write to find out what my heart thinks....

I write to expose and work through the ugly parts of this raunchy disease. My words always help me understand that in this life there will be times that are crappy painful and unexpected but tucked in there are the amazingly wonderful, too. That is when I realized the only control I have over any of this is how I chose to experience them! I realized that I could understand, celebrate can survive even better when I could express these feelings with my own words of courage, humor, and grace. I am the Queen of my own life and the choice is mine!

I am here to celebrate my life, to uncover my fears, to hold on to love, to grieve my losses, to laugh long and hard, and to learn how to live a full magnificent life with heart failure.

I am honoring my creativity, and exploring all of my emotions out loud ...before anyone can say....."Don't talk like that!"



Monday, April 4, 2016


I knew that title would get your attention!

When life gets difficult …this is my sure fire cure!

Although I have to confess that there may be a chance that life would not be as difficult in the first place, if I were better at loving myself.  I have some of the most magnificent friends (who by the way, put up with my outrageousness) and I do have the ability to create (in several different mediums) but I think I lean to hard on them and I am still woefully lacking in the “love yourself” concept.  Loving me has somehow gotten mixed up with being selfish.  They float around my life like 2 different flavors of partially melted Jello in a single bowl, almost impossible to separate the 2 different colors.  

It feels like loving me, sharing how I really feel makes me complicated, vulnerable, undone, exposed, NAKED …..

                      "Naked" Lakshimi Devi

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