life, love,art. heart failure and assorted ramblings

life, love,art. heart failure and assorted ramblings

Don't Talk Like That...

I write to find out what my heart thinks....
I write to expose and work through the ugly parts of this disease, open heart surgery that was less than successful and more recently an S-ICD (internal cardiac defibrillator) implanted in my chest that will hopefully restore my heart beat in case of sudden cardiac death. I am here to celebrate my life, to uncover my fears, to hold on to love, to learn how to live a full life with heart failure, to honor my creativity, and to explore all of my emotions out loud ...before anyone can say
"Don't talk like that!"


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Monday, April 4, 2016

naked...


I knew that title would get your attention!

When life gets difficult …this is my sure fire cure!

Although I have to confess that there may be a chance that life would not be as difficult in the first place, if I were better at loving myself.  I have some of the most magnificent friends (who by the way, put up with my outrageousness) and I do have the ability to create (in several different mediums) but I think I lean to hard on them and I am still woefully lacking in the “love yourself” concept.  Loving me has somehow gotten mixed up with being selfish.  They float around my life like 2 different flavors of partially melted Jello in a single bowl, almost impossible to separate the 2 different colors.  

It feels like loving me, sharing how I really feel makes me complicated, vulnerable, undone, exposed, NAKED …..

                      "Naked" Lakshimi Devi

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