life, love,art. heart failure and assorted ramblings

life, love,art. heart failure and assorted ramblings

Don't Talk Like That...

I write to find out what my heart thinks....
I write to expose and work through the ugly parts of this disease, open heart surgery that was less than successful and more recently an S-ICD (internal cardiac defibrillator) implanted in my chest that will hopefully restore my heart beat in case of sudden cardiac death. I am here to celebrate my life, to uncover my fears, to hold on to love, to learn how to live a full life with heart failure, to honor my creativity, and to explore all of my emotions out loud ...before anyone can say
"Don't talk like that!"


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Friday, November 13, 2015

and she just showed up.....


A lesson in letting go, which some of you may know is NOT what I do! I control everything, partly my saving grace,  partly my undoing!   Before I even started I whipped up that grid, because somehow, some way I needed some structure. I have no other explanation…ridiculous to begin what I though should be a “let it rip” abstract with squares and rectangles.  I slapped on some happy colored paint with no image in mind, and she just showed up.  The paint told me what it wanted…. I just captured it with a few chalk lines and filled in the blanks.    I have a date with her again tomorrow in the studio, and I cannot wait!  Great fun experimenting it is a new day!

  
"There She Goes"  OrtoPilot"

2 comments:

  1. You inspire me to be brave even for a minute, because I can be weak.

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  2. I am weak, too! But every now and again my one minute of brave turns into 2 minutes of brave. I keep hoping!

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