life, love,art. heart failure and assorted ramblings

life, love,art. heart failure and assorted ramblings

Don't Talk Like That...

I write to find out what my heart thinks....
I write to expose and work through the ugly parts of this disease, open heart surgery that was less than successful and more recently an S-ICD (internal cardiac defibrillator) implanted in my chest that will hopefully restore my heart beat in case of sudden cardiac death. I am here to celebrate my life, to uncover my fears, to hold on to love, to learn how to live a full life with heart failure, to honor my creativity, and to explore all of my emotions out loud ...before anyone can say
"Don't talk like that!"


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Wednesday, April 26, 2017

Not linear is a miraculous thing!

Not linear…..This is great news!  For such a HUGE part of my life…healing was taken for granted.  I expected and trusted healing as much as I did the sun to rise.  Fall down skin your knee, no worries, it will heal.  Twist an ankle, yee-ouch...it is going to hurt like hell but it will heal….catch a cold, pick up a stomach virus, cut your finger, even something as traumatic as surgery…Not to worry… my body knows what to do….it is going to heal… that is what it does, and it does it in a trackable, expected way with and sometimes without medication ….My physical body is a healing machine!  But all of that has changed and each time I have a “glitch” I wonder…. will it heal the way I expect it to this time?  The last go-round was “iffy” and we are still working on it…but I think this body is coming through for me again….It is truly a miraculous thing!

"Heal Yourself"  Ruthie Foster

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