Excited because I am about to begin a weeks’ vacation at the beach, scared because for the first time my chest and open heart surgery scar will be exposed. I have gone to great lengths kept it covered, although recently I have worn shirts that are a bit open at the neck line that have revealed a little bit of this scar. But now….at the beach…it will be unavoidably visible to family, friends, and strangers. Are they going to stare, see that I have been broken, and feel sorry for me? I hate all of those feelings!
After tears and fears...I am going, I am playing with my 4 grandsons, swimming in the ocean, volleyball in the pool, kites from the dunes and wine coolers (everywhere) and it is going to show. I have been and still am so vulnerable, but I cannot let it keep me from living! I am exposed!
"You and Your Heart" Jack Johnson