life, love,art. heart failure and assorted ramblings

life, love,art. heart failure and assorted ramblings

Don't Talk Like That...

I write to find out what my heart thinks....
I write to expose and work through the ugly parts of this disease, open heart surgery that was less than successful and more recently an S-ICD (internal cardiac defibrillator) implanted in my chest that will hopefully restore my heart beat in case of sudden cardiac death. I am here to celebrate my life, to uncover my fears, to hold on to love, to learn how to live a full life with heart failure, to honor my creativity, and to explore all of my emotions out loud ...before anyone can say
"Don't talk like that!"


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Wednesday, March 30, 2016

Here's to the Crazy Ones

Seems when I am tired or overwhelmed I easily slip back into old patterns, safe places and expected reactions.  Yesterday was a challenge and a huge lesson!  The exhibition venue was very different than anything I have done before.  Now, every art installation is a challenge but this one more so than most and at the risk of sounding like a spoiled brat diva, I was a bitch and half way through it I was going….”what am I doing?” 

But shame on me….shame on me!  If I was that concerned I would have done my homework and gone to see the venue FIRST!  AND I am always an advocate for doing something you have never done before, being open to wonderful new experiences.  Here is my opportunity to walk my talk, and I shrunk back into my old comfortable “holier than thou” attitude.  How can I possibly be a crazy misfit, a rebel or a troublemaker if I do not take these outrageous different chances and love every moment!
"Crazy" Seal

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