life, love,art. heart failure and assorted ramblings

life, love,art. heart failure and assorted ramblings

Don't Talk Like That...

I write to find out what my heart thinks....
I write to expose and work through the ugly parts of this disease, open heart surgery that was less than successful and more recently an S-ICD (internal cardiac defibrillator) implanted in my chest that will hopefully restore my heart beat in case of sudden cardiac death. I am here to celebrate my life, to uncover my fears, to hold on to love, to learn how to live a full life with heart failure, to honor my creativity, and to explore all of my emotions out loud ...before anyone can say
"Don't talk like that!"


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Wednesday, March 16, 2016

FINALLY...I learned a lesson!

Yes it is ugly now, much worse now than "BEFORE" they "fixed" it but it is over with and healing. I finally did it…I learned my lesson!   There have been at least ba-zillion times I have survived a really awful situation and have repeated the mantra “I have learned a valuable lesson” and from then on out....I simply avoided the people or situations that created the misery, sadness, and hurt.  

Monday I had to, not just avoid a situation but to “take action” to stay out of trouble.

Red hair, fair skin and a far cry from a spring chicken…skin cancer is just another ugly fact of life.  It is a common experience that I have had several times. Unfortunately in the past I have not recognized it until it was a real mess which only makes having it removed worse.  More tissue is excised, more stitches, multiple biopsies and it is in general a real pain in the butt.  But I caught this one early.

Yay me….I learned my lesson…I did not dismiss or avoid…..I took action and it t should heal completely with no eye tissue involvement,  no stitches, and minimal if any scarring!
"Doctor My Eyes"  Jackson Brown

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