Today I feel like I am walking away from a train wreck. Saw it coming, knew it was going to happen, and I should have been totally ready for the impact…but I was not.
Yesterday was heart cath day, This is just one of have had several I have had over the years. They are explosively invasive tests that literally make a small incision in the femoral artery and run a wire directly into my heart. I hate these things; there is absolutely nothing that makes me feel more vulnerable than this test where I am required to bare my crotch and my heart to complete strangers. The test went well, but the results sucked. I have known for 5 years that I have heart failure, I have known since the beginning that it is terminal, I have known for the past few weeks that things are changing and now I understand why. The train wreck has happened, I just have to get up off the ground, brush myself off, gather up my courage and keep walking away from it......keep moving forward.
"All About Your Heart" Mindy Gledhill